#FatinaBorak: That Times When You Have So Much Thoughts You Want To Share


I think it has been a while since I last writing a post about me, myself and I. I miss doing this, just writing something that is what comes from deep of my heart. Hence, I decided to do it today without any plans of what I'm going to actually write here, I will just follow whatever comes to my mind.

Recently, I have been sitting in front of my laptop browsing through my blog to see what have I been posting on my blog which I found that I haven't written a wrap-up post like I used to do every month, I did not post anything under #FatinaBorak, basically, a post that is between me and you - more like a personal story (of course, not too personal). I think most of my post from these past months is more on reviewing either books or products which of course, it is a post that something I enjoy to write. But today, I feel like I want to just pour out things that I think I want to share with you.

Honestly, I have so many things I want to share with you, however, in the blink of an eye, I forget what I want to write here. hmm, That isn't cool at all.

Okay now, I remember..

➧ Still Looking For A Suitable Job

It's not that I hate my current job. I'm okay with it. It just that I truly want to have a job that gives me over 100% satisfaction. Something that you don't feel like 'it's just a work that you will do the same thing every day so, it will be just another day at work' which that kind of things have been lingering on my mind for quite some time and I don't like it. Hence, I decided to try to find a job that makes me happy and enjoy going to work without feel any pressure (I'm okay with lots of work I need to do and have to catch with datelines as long as I'm happy and enjoy, that's okay with me because it the same it is now).

Please, don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm not thankful for what I have now but for myself, I want to be able to find the job that I enjoy doing it, don't you think that's important? Now that I see my sister has secure her dream jobs, of course, I want it, thus, I have to make an effort to get my dream job.

➧ Reading

Despite the workload, I, honestly find comfort and my happiness when I'm reading. It is one of the best things that helps me to forget things that I don't like, it makes me explore the world, the character through the books I'd read. The best thing ever.

➧ Marriage

Ahhh.In three years I will be turning 30 and having no boyfriend yet is not something that I pressure about because I have tonnes of thing I want to achieve in my life but of course, there's once in a while I did think about it especially when people keep asking 'hey, you will be approaching 30s soon so, when are you going to get married?' like hello, who doesn't want to get married, I want to but I have not yet found my other half. No, I don't feel stress about it only annoyed with the question (when you have been asking the same questions for over and over again lol). You may ask me something else. aiyaa 💆 Instead of asking that, how about pray for me that I will find my other half soon. hiks.

➧ Cats

If you followed me on my twitter and/or Instagram account, you might know that I have to let go all my cats due to some unforeseen reasons, however, after a few discussions with my parents, we all agree to only taking care one cat instead of 8 cats. It was the most painful to let them go. They mean a lot to me and to my family although, we have one precious cat with us now, I can't help to miss my other cats. I hope they all are happy with their new families, Insha Allah. I cried almost every day whenever I think about them, it is still painful until now.

➧ Blogging Slump

The scariest thing for the bloggers is when you have lost your motivation to update your blog and/or even reading your own blog, am I right? It's more like a Blogging slump. These past months, I have been avoiding my blog. I have no motivation to write the monthly wrap up post or other posts that are not under review - that's so bad, I know. For that, I have been forcing myself to write at least one post like now, I'm writing this post. How can I get out from this misery of no motivation to update my blog? I need help!

What else should I share here? Hmm, give me some moment to think...

I could not think right now even though, I'm pretty sure I have more things I want to share, however, I have taken my medicine just now (I'm not feeling well, currently) that makes me super sleepy. I guess I shall stop now and I'm going to write more in this kind of session soon. See you in my next post!


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